15 posts tagged “happy”

It's another Mommy and Allison day while Daddy works. She has been incredibly happy this morning even though we didn't get a whole lot of sleep. She just got done giving me the most smiles ever. So of course i picked up the camera...  you can definitely see her eye color is some of those. It's weird how much Hilliker i see in her (my Dad's side of the family).

Well, talk about being Thankful...
Our first Thanksgiving as parents, it's such a good thing. This time last year i was grieving a very short but wanted pregnancy and wondering if we'd be able to get pregnant again. It was totally unchartered territories, settling into a brand new marriage, planning our future, and then trying to make happy memories through 3 holidays. i'm pretty sure we succeeded.

Now everything is different. For instance, the other night we were sitting down to eat dinner (rotisserie chicken, mashed potatoes, gravy, stuffing) and Alli started crying. She wouldn't calm down in her "bouncy chair" so i had to hold her while we ate. i kidded that this is how it will be on Thanksgiving and probably Christmas (we've been talking about THE FOOD we'll be eating for quite some time heh). Wine tasting on Saturday will be tricky; who knows if i can even go. Our families' exciting poker games will be a lot harder to join in on with a little baby in my arms. On the other hand, waking up on Christmas morning at the Fort, everything covered in snow, with our 3 month old will be a dream come true. It's not about us anymore (i'm sure i'll be opening up my presents last... won't that be a first for little miss Kelli!)

i guess this will be the first holiday that i'll feel like an actual grownup. Kind of funny since i'm 31 years old. =)

Time sure is whizzing by! Allison is 16 days old, starting to get a little feisty personality and we love her more than words. Daddy is thinking of going back to work next week... it's so nice to have two sets of hands to care for this child though. Feeding, changing, dressing, cleaning, and pumping gets exhausting, especially when most of it is every 2 or 3 hours, night and day. i think it was the 4am feeding where she spit up all over our bed, so Daddy changed the sheets while i put Alli in a new outfit. Team work, ya know? =) And yeah, we like her sleeping in between us in the bed. i didn't think i'd really allow it but it's obviously much easier and she sleeps better.

Yesterday the three of us went to lunch at Sweet Tomatoes. Ohhh the huge salad and homemade clam chowder and frozen yogurt were divine. i wanted to go back through for seconds (i've never been so HUNGRY and thirsty all the time AND lost weight before!) but didn't want to seem piggy =) i am down about 28 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight. Today we slept in until after 1pm. It was lovely but really, we didn't head to bed until almost 2am and then we were up several times throughout the night. Andrew asked how long all of this will last, the diaper changes, the frequent feedings, etc. but he didn't like my answer. Heheh.

Breastfeeding is going. We try to latch at every feeding (except yesterday when my nipples were PAINFUL or when we have company). She's getting better and we'll just keep at it. She's definitely getting more milk now. It will feel wonderful when we can stop supplementing with that gross formula which she throws up half the time anyway.

She's home!!!!

We brought Allison Marie home from the hospital today. She's 10 days old and still under 6 lbs. but we're sure being home with us all day will be what she needs. Andrew will be home for about 2 weeks. Mom was our only visitor, which was nice. She even made us lunch =) (grilled cheese sammiches). We're awfully happy...

Drive in

It's been a good weekend so far. Yesterday we went over to Andrew's brother's house to help him with his computer. That didn't take long, so after some delicious terryaki chicken and a silly little argument, we tried to think of something to do. i suggested we go to the drive-in. So that's what we did. Got there about an hour and a half early, which seemed like plenty of time to me, but there was already a large group of people there. Ended up with a great spot, set up our camping chairs, ate some chicken strips 'n jojo's, and watched Ratatoullie and The Bourne Ultimatum (we actually watched the movies in the car though, since it was a little windy/chilly outside). The Pixar one was pretty good but not their greatest. Bourne was awesome, great ending, well done... i really enjoyed it. It was our first experience doing that and we can't wait to go again! We didn't get to sleep until 2am though... 6;30pm-1:30am. That's a long night.

Allison was extremely busy for most of the movies, stretching out, sticking those cute little feet into my lungs and stomach. i'm used to it now but wow, it's such an odd sensation. She feels huge in there. i'm thankful that i haven't showed any signs at all of going into labor early. i haven't had more than a drop or two of blood this whole pregnancy, the contractions are very infrequent now and go away if i relax and everything else is going well. Only 42 days to go...

Oh i caved and had some Junior Mints before the first movie started, i think. After dinner, popcorn and the candy i was expecting my blood sugar to be high but it was actually really good (under 100). Go figure.

Not sure what's happening today. i had hoped to get Alli's dresser this weekend but we need a bigger vehicle to pick it up. Tonight we're heading to Mom's for dinner. Sweet. =)

Current tummy. Pretty unbelievable. i can really feel the little bean (who's actually 6 inches from head to bum) moving around. We find out on TUESDAY what we're having!!!! i honestly have no preference at this point, we just want to know what to call this little miracle. Four days people! =)

19wks

The kitties are still doing spectacularly. Zo is the cutest and naughtiest kitten ever. Boo and him are snuggled up to each other, giving long baths and spooning, all the time. =)

When you're in labor and working hard and anticipating those first cries, remember to take a moment and feel those last movements of the baby inside your body. Believe it or not you will miss them!

i've been feeling something the last couple of days. It's definitely not gas, more of the fluttering and bubbles that i've read about. It's about the right time, so maybe. It makes me incredibly emotional, realizing that there is INDEED a baby inside of me... i don't know why it's taking so long to seem real. =) i'm just so happy.

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Of course, along with this joy, i'm watching CNN most of the afternoon, amazed at the violence in Virginia. What on earth makes a person shoot 48 people and then himself?! Those poor parents... Then there's the frustration at some of the crap i'm reading online. Several people suggested that the 32 people who died were to blame for not standing up and fighting for themselves. One called them pussies and pathetic, saying that 9/11 won't happen again because passengers would attack the terrorist and that's what the students should have done. But i think this is very different. Then there's the group of people going crazy over our right to carry guns, saying that the students should have been armed. *sigh* Blech.

This site is great... i love being able to picture the baby. He/she is currently between a lentil bean and a raspberry =)

i'm incredibly grateful that things have been uneventful so far. i mean, besides the long list of daily discomforts, there's been no spotting, nothing wrong. They do say that the crazier the symptoms, the less chance for miscarriage. i'm just gonna keep praying...

Sometimes i catch myself thinking, "Oh. Maybe this is actually going to work! i'm going to have a baby." And then i cry for the tenth time that day. =)

Mmmmm bedtime.

i admit it. i always thought that being pregnant meant you were YOU only with a little bun in the oven. The only things to change were your breasts got lovingly plumper and your tummy poofed out to become a convenient arm rest. That's it, that's all, what a nice glow you have.

Well, let me tell you, there's a few other changes (i've already described most of them and yes, it still blows me away that this little tiny bean is causing this much change and discomfort) but the biggest thing to live with right now is the exhaustion. It's a damn miracle i kept my eyes open for most of yesterday (they might have closed for a couple of minutes at work) including that whole driving thing, and i actually made it through an entire DVD when the hubby got home -- Running With Scissors, which was disturbing and awesome -- with the help of some chai. 

i'm amazed at how i feel so completely unlike me right now. It's not just that i have a human growing inside of me, but it's that i'm no longer Kelli, i'm Pregnant Kelli with sore hips, a uterus bustling with activity, ankles retaining so much water i could float to Australia... how is all of this possible within the first few weeks? Why don't we get prepared for this by other moms?!? i honestly think the baby doing summersaults into my ribcage will be normal compared to this stage... isn't the baby kicking what we've seen on TV a billion times? It's never a pregnant lady who isn't showing yet passed out at 6pm after spending 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to make a poopy!

The first time i told Mom i was pregnant she said NOTHING about how i would soon turn into a different woman, so tired i could sleep on the floor of a public bathroom. This seems like really excellent information to have. Maybe it's because ultimately it doesn't matter how incredibly crummy you feel or how drastic your body changes since in the end, a healthy baby is all you notice anyway. Besides, i doubt she could remember all these sensations after 30 years. They "say" you forget the pain and misery of pregnancy and childbirth, so maybe i will too... HUGE as it all seems to me now.